Irritation

Why are some people extremely irritating all the time, no matter what?  All Stephanie ever does is feel sorry for herself and I've stopped caring, I don't want to deal with it any longer.  She just posts stuff on facebook trying to get attention and other's sympathy...grow up.  She specifically wrote that she wants attention, and that guys walk by her like shes not there and she sees everyone else all happy and shes jealous.  Okay, first off how does she know how others feel?  I guess she just judges them based on how they appear.  She acts like shes the only one who doesn't get attention from guys or whatever, she says "no one compliments me, they only compliment what I wear."  What is wrong with that?!?? It's a compliment, goodness; she is just working on my LAST NERVE.  When really all she has to blame is herself, she claims to make efforts to make friends and talk to people but she really doesn't; she sits in her room with her door shut on facebook 24/8 (KP ;) lol ), how do you expect to meet people like that?  Then she talks about how it would have been if she went to a more diverse school, which is what she talked about ALL last semester, transferring to another school and stuff.  THEN GO, don't talk to me about it, we've had this discussion thousands of times and I tell you the same thing over and over and then you go and post shit on facebook to get people to feel sorry for you.  She should be trying to improve her experience and time here instead of dreaming about going to another school, or if you want to go to a "more diverse" school so bad then why don't you do it?  I don't think she will, if she doesn't come back to NAU shell probably just go live at home.  I guess its just her personality that bugs me to the extreme, I mean sometimes I can hang out with her and we can have fun and stuff, but sometimes I want to see other people too, people she doesn't like because of something from facebook (-_-) so stupid.  She always talks about how she needs to form a group of friends, but she never takes any steps in that direction, sure she talks this girl sometimes and this other girl sometimes but thats basically it.  She never tries to hang out with one of those girls because she always assumes shes busy doing stuff with other people...um, thats not trying.  I just can't deal with her so much all the time, but whatever.  I usually just start being quiet when she pisses me off and say yeah...yeah.  Maybe I'll quit doing that, and I know something I say will hurt her feelings like everything does and I'll be seeing about it on facebook but I don't really care anymore, if she doesn't want to talk to me anymore who is she going to hang out with?  Maybe I should make her mad at me so shell be forced to talk to other people, but I know that wont happen, shell just sit in her room all day.  A week or two ago we were sitting in Starbucks doing literally nothing just sitting and drinking and stuff, and I was saying how I was bored and we should do something and stuff, and then later that night she texts me (because she can't dare say it in person psh) about how that hurt her feelings, me saying I was bored when I was with her.  She feels like shes a boring person, whatever.  That shouldn't hurt your feelings, she takes absolutely everything personally, and blames it on being a girl.  No, that is unacceptable, she can't make that generalization, I have plenty of girl friends, and no one has ever acted like her, I know everyone is different, and that is exactly my point.  My irritation is just building up.  She always asks these questions about how people perceive her, and I tell her she shouldn't care about what other people think.  Apparently she doesn't, she is just a curious person...right, that is total bs.  Why is she so stuck on getting attention from guys, black guys?  In the past she never talked about that, but now all she talks about is how there is so few black people here.  So what?  You knew that before you came here, so don't go complaining about it now, because I will just tell you the same thing over and over and you'll just get upset or your feelings hurt over and over, but I will not feel sorry for you.  She is fun to hang out with sometimes, it depends though.

Tonight is Step Afrika!  I forgot I volunteered to do security but, typical BSU didn't let us know what we had to wear until last night at like 11:30pm so I'm not doing it, I'm just going to watch the show.  And of course she hasn't e-mailed me back letting me know she got my message or answering a question I asked her, I don't exist in that group, I'm just a body in a seat there.  I won't be going to small group tonight since I'm supposed to go to everything I can that we're putting on for Black History Month unless I'm in class or something, and I got my ticket for the show already.  There are like 1000 tickets, free tickets, and not even a third of them have been taken yet, that sucks.  It should be cool though, her and I are going tonight.

I played cards last night with a friend and a bunch of his friends, it was pretty fun.  I really like playing cards, I don't care if I sound like an old person, which I don't, I need to play cards more often.